Long time no speak, been busy with exams, yay! ;)
But this post I wanted to open up about my friendship issues because well, I see to have a problem holding down friends. In year eight I was friends with two girls and had been friends with them for over a year and I thought they would be friends for a long time. I really thought they would be there at my wedding. But then one day one of them told me, I wasn’t the same person and not the sort of friend she wanted. I didn’t know what I had done and was heart broken. The other friend followed her and I was left.
I didn’t know how to cope with it and had many friendships that ended. I kept thinking I had done something wrong, and that it is always my fault. Then I meet one of my best friends, and she had a few other best friends but I felt nothing of it. Then this year suddenly everyone is her best friend, and I feel like a rental friend to her. During term time she doesn’t speak to me a lot and posts so many pictures on Instagram of her many friends. Then when its half term I am allowed back on the scene. I don’t know if I’m over thinking it but whenever I try to bring it up, it’s almost dismissed. Im the friend thats allowed to be used and I can’t deal with it again. I don’t know :(
But my Boyfriend is always here and my best friend Becca and her Boyfriend Harry. But hey I’m sure it will sort itself out and school finishes soon. I just feel like it will always be my fault because of what happened in year eight. Is that wrong?
Talk soon x